Top vs Bottom

So what happens when a top's hand is redder than the spankee's bottom???

VICTORY!!!

I'm sure he learned his lesson! :)

Not what I was Planning...

I was given a hint to update on my blog blurb widget (or whatever it is called) ;) and I am trying to focus on that. I have a couple SSC blogs in the work but unfortunately I've fallen ill at a time where I not only have graduate papers due but I was promoted and must learn the new position in a week. I was in need of a desperate procrastination break so I logged on to my blog hopping to finish one of my posts. Unfortunately I am lying with my head on a pillow and a box of tissues next to my laptop. The only thing I can apparently write about is how I can't think about anything to write!

I've decided to give some shout outs instead with thanks of recent posts that friends of mine have added to their blogs. My traffic has increased lately after it took the hit of losing my link on Chross's blog :(. I know, it's what I get for not posting but I'll win you back Chross, I promise! :)

First off, thanks to Todd at About Spankings for posting one of my favorite pictures of me! I didn't think a camera would be involved when I put on the several panties but I am so glad that I did. I like that I can make people smile by doing the silly things that I do.

Second, thanks to Richard Windsor for not only posting my link on his new Spanking Universe blog, but posting pics of our spanking session at the SSC. It took over a year to finally get to play with Rich and it was well worth the wait. He is a great top and knows how to read a spankee really well during a session. Here is the picture that he posted:

But here is one of my favorite pictures from the entire weekend:



Thanks for the shout outs Rich!

Third, Cookie tagged me on her honest blogger. That has also actually been on my list of things to do. I'm not sure what I am willing to share yet, lol... but as soon as I finish that I will post it soon as well. I think I'll start off with me being fluent in German. See Chross? I speak German, you are German... we're practically related!Fourth, since I already thanked Todd for his About Spanking link, I am going to thank him again as well as Suzy over at A.S.S. They are always nice about posting great blogs about their spanking adventures, and luckily they are able to add me in a few of their stories! Todd is another one of the spankers that I really enjoy being spanked by. There is just something about him that makes me want to egg him on lol!


Last but not least, my thanks go to S and R for hosting and organzing a wonderful SSC. I am sorry I am being a slacker with my posts, but R can spank me for it the next time we meet! ;)

Please check out my friends blogs (which since most of you have come from their links, I guess you already do lol).

Love Our Lurkers 4

Today is "Love our Lurkers" day, a shout-out to all of those who read our spanking blogs in secret. This day is in its 4th year and was created by Bonnie of My Bottom Smarts. I am happy to be taking part once again this year especially since the first LOL day inspired me to come out of the spanking closet. Having been a lurker for several years, I can sympathize with those of you afraid to leave comments or admit to others that you are into spanking.



I invite you to leave a comment here on my blog as well as the other spanking blogs out there. Face it, all bloggers are comment-whores so you would be making our day a little bit brighter! :)

Happy reading!


This picture features me receiving a spanking from Todd at the SSC. :) More on that to come soon!

Post Party Drop Syndrome

I have just recently received several emails filled with pictures from the SSC party that I attended two weekends ago. :-D I am still contacting people about using pictures but once I have permission and everything I will begin posting about that weekend.

From reading several spanking blogs over the years, I've read about many people's experience with the post party drop. When I came back from Shadow Lane last year, I felt a slight drop in my mood for a short while and contributed it to what must have been post party drop syndrome (Or PPDS as I will now call it). Boy was I ever wrong!

When my boyfriend and I drove home that Sunday, we were on this weird high at what we had just done. We were laughing, talking about the weekend's shenanigans, holding hands, making goo-goo eyes... We were just in this glorious mood that followed us from the mountains, to the car, to home that evening. The party brought us closer in our relationship because it is so special to be able to share an open spanking relationship with one another and actually understand each others kink.

That high lasted a few days before reality sunk in and it was back to the same old, same old. Add an emergency business trip that sent my boyfriend out of town suddenly, and my euphoria drop drastically.

It wasn't anything really spanking related that had me down. I just felt miserable. My temporary service job (which I hate anyway) was so much worse and I actually started crying one morning with a feeling of being overwhelmed (EMBARRASSING). I hated my classes and felt too stupid to be sitting in them. I started questioning things about my relationship and over thinking little things. My insecurities skyrocketed and I felt like a lost little girl with no place to go. Spankingwise I began over thinking that relationship as well. Thoughts popped into my head like, 'he didn't really spank me all that much over the weekend', 'he must like spanking other girls more than he likes spanking me', and the most common: 'how come he doesn't spank ME like that anymore?' For a girl that hates to cry, my eyes have been watering like crazy over the dumbest things. Crying makes me feel extremely vulnerable and I try to turn away and hide my face. Unfortunately the sniffling always gives me away.

The past couple of days I have finally began feeling a little like myself again. I am desperatly awaiting this weekend where I get a few days off from work and my boyfriend comes home from his latest business trip. That lost little girl feeling is still there, but hopefully a giant hug and a kiss will squash that quicker than a bug flying into a windshield. I am extremely lucky to now be living near my spanko boyfriend now. He is at least able to help me deal with my current craziness by just being there (and hopefully providing a decent spanking this weekend HINT HINT).

Have you or anyone else that you know suffered from PPDS? How do you deal with it? How long does it generally last? Is it just a bottom thing or do tops suffer from it as well? I welcome anyones thoughts and advice on the issue.

Smokey Smoke

We are back from a wonderful spank-filled weekend in the mountains! I plan on writing a more detailed post, but I am waiting on pictures and also waiting to ask certain people if they mind me posting pictures. See, asking permission is the polite thing to do when taking pictures or posting pictures with other people in them (HINT HINT).

Just so you are not being left high and dry, here are some of my favorite moments from the weekend:

• Spending a long weekend in the mountains with the most wonderful guy ever
• Searching for bears only to find out that Richard Windsor was almost eaten by one ;)
• Being caned for the first time and letting Publikk cane someone for the first time (after private instruction of course)
  
• Learning how to count to ten in Japanese
  
• FINALLY being spanked by Richard Windsor after he threatened me for over a year
• Seeing Todd and Suzy again and "helping" Publikk find the right implements to use on Suzy
  
• Getting a strapping by the London Tanner using one of his handmade straps
• Asking the London Tanner what language I should count out my strapping in
• Somehow being volunteered to be spanked by every top in the room as if it were a relay
  
• School girl role play including spitwads and plenty of chewing gum (oh, canings and school paddles as well)
  
• Decorating the cabin with the ASS and House of Richard Windsor paddles
• Clearing my SSU dues (BOOOOOOOOOOOO!)
• Causing trouble with some wonderful ladies
• Learning that Iggy isn't really vanilla even though she claims that she practically is
  
• yummy BBQ, Lasagna, and Sunday morning pancakes
• Helping Publikk send text messages out
  
• Meeting some of the greatest people ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks so much to the organizers for inviting us to such a wonderful weekend getaway! Words can't describe how great these people are and the hard work they put into organizing such a wonderful weekend.

Detail posting coming soon. :-D

And we're off!

We are off for a weekend of spanking adventures! :-) I promise to write about our trip and the many spankings that will occur!




As a side note... I was going to save this for a separate blog, but let's just say it really annoyed me. I find it kind of RUDE to take pics off of a blog and post them as your own. So quit being a jackass and either give me credit or quit stealing them. For your actions I give you the douche of the year award:

Congratulations. I'm sure you must be very proud.

Pure Ramblings

I'm procrastinating... I'll admit it. I've been out of school for 5 years and getting back into the whole class/reading/homework thing is harder than I thought it would be. It is very frustrating actually. One class I am bored out of my mind because it is too easy for me... the other class I'm bored out of my mind because I have no idea what is going on. The readings are dull, my notes have more doodles than knowledge, and I find myself doing what I had originally thought was the rudest thing ever... send text messages during class. Part of me is also scared. I'm worried that I'm not smart enough or that my chance to finish a graduate degree has come and gone way before I started this. I'm also scared because this was my emergency back plan if I got laid off, so if I fail at this... what next?

I know that some people I thinking this school girl needs one of these:

Perhaps those people are correct... but I'm not sure if it will help with the trap feeling I sometimes get when I am unsure of what my future holds. Sometimes the unknown is awesome. I get excited when I travel to new places, go on scary roller coasters, try weird food that ends up tasting good... and many other things that fall into that new and exciting category. Other times I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me. The unsureness of being unemployed brings that feeling on more often than I would like, and it always hits me when I least expect it. Sometimes I'm just depressed for no apparent reason. Other times I toss and turn at night having nightmares that I can barely remember once I've waken up. I feel sorry for my boyfriend, because sometimes I don't know how to explain how I feel. He is there for me, but who wants to be the whiny, bitchy, mopey girlfriend??? That is not who I am as a person, so why must the person I spend the most time with get the brunt of my emptiness?

Luckily one of the quickest ways to make me feel better is by traveling someplace new. Combine spanking with it and it may be the perfect temporary escape! Remember I said there was the good kind of scary, and the closer I get to the spanking party this weekend the more my excitement level rises lowering the anxiety levels I had in my last blog post. I'm looking forward to seeing the mountains and hopefully trying this crazy zip cord things as well (Print the coupon you know who!). I'm also excited about seeing friends that I have not seen in over a year and the spankings of course, but most of all I am excited about spending the weekend with a special someone away from everything that has been stressing us both out.

So only a two days left of working my crappy temporary job and two days left of boring classes... then we'll drive my Chevy to the levy, or at least to the woods for a much desired switching! ;)